Ive decided to change this blog's theme from "fighting!" to "great!". Influenced this time by the japanese hehe (fighting! = koreans) specially by Great Teacher Onizuka. Like Onizuka, we must see life as a never-ending greatness, live life to the fullest as they say.. and thats exactly what Im gonna do.

Of all my blogs (I have 5 blogs hehe), this one is probably my favorite. I want to fill this space again, this time with meaningful posts. I really want to share to everyone what is really going on with my life and hopefully they can learn a thing or two.

Blogging is becoming more popular these days. In case youre not aware, you can earn real money just by blogging. Im planning to make another blog just for this purpose. For the mean time Ive made one for my team, still under construction but it is worth checking. www.pacificgaming.blogspot.com.

To Fight...is to overcome anything in order to gain something..something that is important, something worth keeping. It is a nature for humans to fight especially if it will affect his life so much. Ive used the word "fighting" for quite some time now. Whenever Im down or when I have problems, my innerself will always tell me to fight! not to give up no matter what! But as I take a few steps in life, I just realize that no matter how hard you try..there are just some fights in your life that you just can't win. Anyway life is just like a 2 way street, someone wins while the other side loses. But who wants to lose anyway...sadness, loneliness, depression...these are just a few things a "loser" can experience. I always associate fighting with love. Because everyone is capable of fighting for the ones they love. But one of the greatest tragedy in life...is not being with the person you love. Love can be a funny thing sometimes, you love someone but she loves somebody else. How will you fight for someone..if that someone is fighting for somebody else.. sad enough but true. 2 weeks before, I really felt like a loser. The moment you expect love is the moment everything will become troublesome. But of course I dont want to be remembered as the guy who fell in love to a friend and got wasted in the process. For me it really doesnt matter how hard you fall, what matters most is how strong you got up. Maybe the biggest mistake I made is that I expected too much. True love doesn't expect anything in return. =) Whats important is that you have the ability to love, and to share this love with someone. When I come to think of it, maybe I'm not a loser after all. I know God is alive within me, because He is indeed a God of Love. . Maybe In His eyes, Im the true winner. Because Ive been honest, and I don't regret anything at all. The rain has stopped...It's time for me to move on. =)

The Way I do

Your kiss
Your smile
Your mind
Your sunlight in my eyes
I miss
Your breath
On my neck
When we whisper in the night

(Bridge)
Didn’t wanna hold you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do
Yeah…. Ohhh
The way I do…

[Verse 2]
Your touch
Your skin
Can’t believe the way you let me in
Don’t rush tonight
I need you like the ocean needs the tide

(Bridge)
Didn’t wanna hold you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountaintop all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
Now I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
Baby… The way I do…

I love you…
I need you…
I want you…



To my betterfriend, kindly please listen to this song. I'll sing this one for you. Messege sent to s0ci0path_07@yahoo.com

My favorite game with my favorite song.

more youtube entries...Im gonna revamp this blog for the next 2 weeks...I dont feel like writing although everyone around me can tell that Im not happy...need to finish that project...a new beginning for me...start working next week...

accept.learn. live. love.

Welcome to the world of Japanese Pop.

We had our oathtaking kanina. Frankly speaking ayaw ko naman talaga umattend. Hindi ko rin naman feel kasi, ewan ko ba. I only bought 1 ticket, solo flight lang ako. Pero inaya ko si Leo na samahan ako, napansin ko madami rin naman nag solo flight kanina. Maybe because mahal ang ticket 700 pesos.. kung hindi lang din dahil sa PRC license and some requirements eh hindi na rin ako aattend, thanks to Ate Clarice at pina alala niya sa akin. Alam na rin naman siguro ng iba dyan kung bakit hindi ako masaya kahit na CPA na ako. But my reason for being sad this day is not the same though. Im a very cheerful person, I believe it is everyone's choice to be happy, everyone has a discretion to be happy everyday. I can give a fake smile but you can see it through my eyes. This day is not made for us inductees, this day is made to commemorate our parents.. How I wish nandito ka Mama, so I can be proud of you in front of everybody, so I can gracefully clap my hands and tell you how much i love you. I miss you so much. We are equally triumpanth on this and I would like to thank you for everything you've done to us. We have lots of stories to tell and so much time to fill. I really hope we can see each other soon. Until then take care oki.

Hay naku nakakamiss mag aral. Parang kelan lang hindi nila ako maistorbo sa kaka-aral. Anyway sabik na rin naman ako mag work, kasi medyo napag-iiwanan na rin naman ako ng mga ka batch ko. I think mas magiging effective ako sa fieldwork kay sa sa studies ko. Yep inaanmin ko naman na medyo may katamaran akong mag aral, kaya nga madami akong absenses noon, ayaw ko kasi ng paulit ulit haha. Pero pagdating naman sa work eh hindi na ako magpapatalo, may work experience na rin naman ako naranasan ko nang inuumaga sa store noon at physically tired, this time i think I will be challenged mentally naman. Inaplayan ko ang apat na aud. firms so may natitira pang isa. Kung ako sana papipiliin, I really want to start my career sa mga auditing firms, kahit na alam kong mahirap at madaming nagreresign. I'll just have to wait for their calls, hopefully they will call me asap. For the mean time Im gonna pick my life where I left it. I leaved my team for how many months and what a time for me to come back. Let's see our schedule:

June 9-10 Asian Cyber Games - 2 teams kami bale. napunta ako sa team B kasi wala pa akong praktis. I expect us to finish at Day 2 unlike last year na first game eliminated agad courtesy of team 129SC, winner will represent the Philippines at the ACG,will be held at Singapore.

June 15 I Hooked Tournament - katipunan area 15k prize ^^

June 24 TEch Square Tournament - sa may paranaque, homecourt ng team ninja and teampapi 15k prize ^^

June 30 Tycoon Synergy P150,000 Tournament - wooops the biggest event to date! teams from Malaysia, Thailand, and Singapore will come here in the Philippines to compete. Will be held at Sm Mall of Asia. Team A has qualified already, and im in charge of Team B.

The qualifying for the World Cyber Games(WCG) has concluded already. Unfortunately I only finished 6th place, I missed 2 venues because of my board exams, but thats ok since my brother Ralf finished first, with only 1 lost I expect Ralf to do good in the playoffs. Winner of this event will represent the Philippines at the WCG to be held at Seattle this coming October plus lots of prizes. Here is the rankings http://esports.ph/rankings.htm

Finally the Dota Lan Season League was ought to continue this June after a month long break. We are currently ranked 10th (PPC) and 11th(Pacific). I will try my best to help the team since I'm the one in charge of picking line-ups.

All thanks to Ate Vange for her continuing support.

I passed the board exams. I'm speechless right now. Lets just say that im still absorbing this kind of feeling.. im so happy and even more than that. I feel so successful as of this moment, although I know a lot of challenges is already waiting for me out there. As of now I just want to enjoy my victory, and everyone is invited.

I would like to thank the following people ^^

All the staff and reviewers of IPRSD. I trusted them all the way, although Im always late during our first period ^^. They really took care of us especially me, just ask Sir Reyes and Mam Empleo about it haha.

All the reviewees of IPRSD. These people are really special. Our class is only compose of 40 students, so unlike in other review schools we are much closer to each other. We even had a Christmas party last December. They are like my 3rd family and I appreciate every one of them.

My family and relatives. Thanks for supporting me all the way, for providing me good foods, for keeping silent while im studying ^^ I know they believe in me eventhough they are not saying it.

To my Pacific friends. You guys are like my 2nd family already. Thanks for the company when I dont feel like studying, for all the laughters when I feel like frowning. Im back to our team so lets play again.

To my 4a3 friends and "collegues". Thanks for all the prayers. Thanks for all the greetings and calls, I really really appreciate it, thanks for remembering me all the way. I'll see you all soon.

To my precious Mother. I offer my success to you. I know you are so proud of me right now. I love you so much. And I'll see you soon ok.

To my other half, my twin brother. Thanks for everything. You know how much I care for you. My success is your success too.

To my "inspiration", Ms. Rochelle Antolin. I know we had made a gap at each other. A gap that is deep I dont know how to bridge. But nevertheless I wouldn't make it without your sweet name carved so tenderly in my heart. Thanks for everything. How I wish I could collect all the perfect words too. Hoping to talk to you again.

Most importantly, I would like to thank our Lord Almighty. Thank you Lord for guiding me through the tests, for giving me the gift of mind, for giving me all the things that I need. From now on I will be more close to you than before. I know this is just the beginning. But as long as you are with me I can overcome anything.

Last but not the least I would like to thank myself, Rayray. Thanks for being so understanding and patient. From now on I will love myself more, so others can love me more ^^

GG no re.

Wow redemption day has come. My first batch of exams are over. I cant believe Im still smiling. There's nothing to frown anyway. My secret is that I did my best to answer each questions. People think that I know everything, of course not. I just study my lessons along the way. Even though I didnt get high scores during the pre board I manage to gather my senses and continue studying until this day comes. God is good at all times. Whenever I ask Him for help He was there. I leave it all up to Him. Whatever the results may be I will still be smiling, coz I know I did my best, and I believe that He will do the rest.

Day 1 - Theory of Accounts - 80 items. too easy. =)some questions are just pretty plain.
- BusinessLaw and Taxation - 70 items. between easy and average. too many questionable questions.

Day 2 - Manegement Advisory Services - 80 items. between easy and average. the situitional case is too easy to get nervous. Some people told me that the October 2006 test is a little bit harder so you do the math.
- Auditing Theory - 100 items whoops. between average and hard. Some people cried after taking this test. Ive read a lot of materials but nothing was like anything in the test. It was a like a home-made test, questions are rephrased and modified. But I think I did fine here because I did not guess any of the answers.



I love this song so much. Fighting!!!

Come face the wind while spreading your wings.
It's a chance to fly away away and bring forth your strength.
Anxiety and pride fly in my heart.

I'm wandering around destiny touched by your faint smile.
While embracing each other this moment.
This moment full of hope, and the courage to love you deeply,
begins to move, binding together our two interwining hearts.

The brilliant light that shines upon us, awakens us now.
Rising up making a sound, carved out from that place.
Unhealable scar,swaying in solitude and anxiety.
I'm going far away from my existence.

Sometimes the best thing to do...is to do nothing...

Sexy Love
Ne-yo

My sexy love... (so sexy...)
[Verse 1]
She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my love
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Babygirl you know your my (sexy love...)

[Verse 2]
I'm so addicted to how she's the sweetest touch
Just in love
Still to much say that I simp and I'm sprung on I might be your boy
I can't you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Oh, Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
[
Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love...)

[Verse 3]
Oh baby what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' til it goes back down
And I don't know what I would do if I would lose your touch
That's why I'm keepin' you around... my sexy love

I haven't written anything that makes sense lately. So let me try doing one before the year ends. I tried asking a friend whats is her greatest fear so far. And she answered me ... to love the wrong person again. And so I ask myself, does past relationships makes your former lover a wrong person? Definitely not. When you love someone all you can see is her beautiful side and accept all her flaws. When two people love each other, a wrong person does not exist. I think it is not the person who is wrong but the "love" itself. If we only love a person out of pity or we are forcing ourselves to be loved by someone, then that kind of love is wrong to begin with. We only label them as wrong persons because they hurted us or somehow broke our hearts. There is no such thing as perfect relationship. Love is always accompanied by hurt. The ultimate test for anyone is how to sustain your love for each other. The best thing you can do is to know the person first, but you can really never assess someone until you undergo the test of time. So if I will rephrase her answer then your fear is not that of loving the wrong person, but your afraid that you might get hurt again or better yet you are not yet ready to give your love to someone. If I ask this to myself, my fear is.. not to be love back by the person you love, because I know to myself that I had so much to give and yet I can't share it. Happy New Year to everyone!!

Sometimes its good to be back to your old self, but sometimes it can be scary too.

hmmm 1 month absent haha. nakalimutan ko na tong blog ko. Pero hindi, babalik at babalik ako dito para isulat lahat ng mga happy moments ko. And speaking of happy moments, ako na yata ang pinakamasayang tao as of this day. Birthday ko last November 25. Sa totoo lang eh wala talga ako balak mag celebrate ng bday. I was not so excited until 2 days before it. Pano ba naman ang daming hinanakit dito sa bahay hehe. Pero meron isang taong "nagpilit" na magsaya ako, at yun ay walang iba kundi si Rochy. She made me realize that I can be happy. Sinurprise nila(4a3)ako ng isang videoke hehe. Nakakataba naman talaga ng puso. At siyempre kinantahan pa ako ni Roch, hindi ko lang alam kung para sa akin talaga yung kantang yun hehe. Wow maraming maraming salamat po sa inyo. Ang masasabi ko lang eh "hintayin nyo ako dyan sa Makati ok?" haha

I have a new pet and his name is Fulbog. Stuff toy na super duper cute! Gift siya sa kin ni Rochy. Pakita ko sa inyo next time.

Rochy celebrated her birthday too last Dec2! Belated happy birthday po. Actually magkasama kami buong araw hehe. Kasali kasi siya sa isang singing exhibition (di naman kasi contest) that day sa may DAR, community day kasi ng kanilang church. Wow bilib talaga sa talent niyang kumanta. Nerbyosa nga lang. Tsaka sana ako nalang sana yung ka duet niya huhu. Yakang yaka ko naman yung second voice nung "We are the reason". I get to see the wonderful members of "acceptors" again. Ang saya saya talaga nilang kasama kasi sobrang hyper. Lalo na nung nanlibre na si celebrant sa may greenhills haha. Di ko alam na may tradition pala silang hotseat pag may bday! Ayun at parang na hotseat din ako haha siyempre meron isang napakatinding tanong na hindi pa masasagot sa ngayon. To Rochy thanks for allowing me to share that day with you! I really had a lot of fun! Tsaka aminin mo ang gwapo ko that day haha. Yung mga pictures sana paki share na lang sa akin ha. You are wonderful as always. Always stay pretty and strong. Madami nagmamahal sayo, and I'm on top of that list! mwah!

Wow its been a while na nagselos ako ng ganito. Halos hindi na ako makatulog sa sobrang selos hehe. Sabi ni Ek natural lang naman na magselos ako. Anyway kung anu man yun eh next time nyo na lang malalaman. Basta alam ko na ngayon kung anong dapat kong gawin. Alam ko na rin kung saan ako lulugar. At least "you" are honest with me. Know that Im not leaving without a good fight! Diba Dada. rayray Fighting!!

In case you dont know Rochy then here's our pic( galing sa friendster nya ahihi)

Wow ang dami kong review materials galing to kay Roch. Goodluck nga pala sa mga magtatrabaho na bukas. Classes also starts tomorrow. Nakakatuwa kanina pag uwi ko, meron kaming malaking Christmas Tree dito sa bahay! First time kasi nilang maglagay ng ganyan eh pero wala pa naman christmas lights. Para tuloy akong bumabalik sa pagkabata at naghahanap ng mga regalo sa ilalim haha. Anyway Christmas is just around the corner.

Belated Happy B-day to Sidney, salamat sa palabok at lechon manok.

Tsong Clash natin Mid Tsong! - rho

November na. Today is all saints day. Dami tao niyan sa sementeryo. Sa totoo lang hindi pa ako nakakapunta ng sementeryo pag Nov 1. Sabi nila masaya daw parang fiesta. Nov. 2 kasi kami pumupunta so malamang eh pumunta kami niyan bukas. Kaso wala ng tao pag Nov. 2, kami kami na lang mga relatives. Medyo malungkot nga ako pag undas kasi nagsisiuwian lahat ng mga tao kasama na dun mga friends ko. Pero masaya pa rin kasi nagkakasama uli kaming magpipinsan. Anyway ang importante naman eh maalala natin ang mga yumaong malapit satin.
There goes the blessings of death, you can get the pleasure of being remembered. And you will be remembered by all the good deeds you've done and beautiful memories you've left. The bad ones just got eradicated.

The CPA Exam results are already out. As in the news, UP got the no.1 spot followed byPUP I think. Anyway I am only concerned to fellow Thomasians, I wish I could get the exact figures of those who pass and those who fell short. I already know some of my friends who passed and I would like to congratulate all of you, you know who you are guys specially my family at 4A3. Your dreams start now.

Speaking of dreams. I watched Pinoy Dream Academy last night(accidentally I think, no I have a huge crush at Nikki Gil hehe). And what did I see, I saw a lot of sexy bodies haha. There is this one who lay down and remove her bra, how liberating. Its ok as long as there is no malice. Anyway the real deal is that everyone got emotional specially those who got nominated for expulsion. While they are crying I was laughing inside. You see eventually all of them will be remove from the show until a certain number of people remains. For me if I got nominated, I will just accept that, I just did everyone a favor didn't I? You don't falter as long as you give your best. But they are not like me and so are you. And I think that's the beauty of reality shows, you can learn the power human emotions.

Cheers!

After 3 years of waiting Final Fantasy XII is already out, at least in its pirated form haha. It came out just in time since I have nothing to do this sem-break. I've already reach the 40 hour mark as of this time. All I can say is that it's addictive and superb. There is no any game like it. It plays like an MMORPG, say goodbye to repetitive battle intros and victory poses because you can now move seamlessly between combat and exploration. I love the cast, they all looks cool together with their english accent. Personally the best final fantasy so far since ff7. This will be the last FF I will be playing for the next two years since PS3 is gonna be so expensive(500-600 dollars what the heck). I'm an FF geek, played all of them from I up to X-2 (I have a DS and Im gonna buy FF3 as well as FFXII-2). Im sure this game will be a hot topic for me and my friends for the mean time. Famitsu rated this game 10 out of 10.

We are debating who is more beautiful, Yuna or Ashe. mine will be Tifa.

It's only a matter of hours before the board exams. Tomorrow will be the day of judgement for us accounting graduates. Oh by the way I would like to congratulate myself for graduating already. Unfortunately I will be taking my licensure exam next year. But I am not saddened by the fact, I believe God has a plan for me. And so I believe too for my batchmates. Although instincts will tell us that not everyone will pass, I will pray for a 100 percent passing rate, nothing is impossible. I wonder how does everyone feels... because I too am nervous and scared. If there's one advice I can tell then I want everybody to fight. Fight your fears, fight for your efforts, even fight yourself, most importantly fight for your future, because our future depends on this. Goodluck and Godspeed.

FIGHTING!!

What a way to end my season. Team pacific landed on 3rd place at the I-pad tournament that was held a while ago. We have improved so much that we are already at same level of our most favored teams. Sad to say this was my last outing and I just hope I will be remembered as one of the main players of our team. Goodluck and Have Fun!

Congratulations to Team Flow for again dominating this tournament. You guys are so good. In behalf of the team I would like to thank you for having our teams immuned to each other. We respect each other so much and that is more important.

Thanks to Ate Vange for her continuing support to our team. No other sponsor/manager is more prettier than you. And to Kuya Vins for a successful tournament. Please support the gaming community! We really appreciate it.

Sayang ang Chain Frost -- rayray