It's been 2 months since I've been hired as a professional. All I can say is that Im having a great time here in our company. The truth is im hesitant at first, I really dont want to work here, not because its not worth it but maybe because Im not yet prepared for what may come. SGV is known for its work overload among its employees. So far I have no overload of work yet but I think Im already prepared now that the busy season is just around the corner. Of course I have other reasons why I chose this company but that is not important anymore(personal eh).

I can say that Im really blessed, I've been included into one of the happiest cluster of this organization. I do have wonderful officemates!. Eversince day one they really made me feel belonged, and being the friendly person I am, I can say that I made the right choice after all.

My new staff days are over. But I can't disregard my co-new staffs, composed of great people, specially the ladies hehe. I was the sole Thomasian in our batch, all of them came from la salle(animo!). At first I thought I will be out of place but everything went just fine. I dont know what they think of me but as far as Im concern, I really like all of them.

Justin - if you want "beauty and brain" then here she is. She has this very positive aura that I desire so much. Has a very soft voice and has a very very strong personality(and I mean it). One time a quarter of our cluster ordered lunch from chowking. The food came an hour late! She called the store and complained to the manager. She did it with authority, and she make it looks like easy, because she's smiling all the time. Amazing.. did I mentioned that she was number 11 in the board exams? cool.

Jessa - back in training, Jessa is one of the most confident lady Ive ever seen. She is an example of a true la sallian, vocal and smart. She is also the most talkative among the batch, she loves to laugh and crack some jokes. She is my favorite because she knows how to dress herself, always wearing corporate attire and heels. Lastly, she has this cute smile no one can resist, and her face resembles that of Maxene Magalona. ^^
Rein




to be continued

Ive decided to change this blog's theme from "fighting!" to "great!". Influenced this time by the japanese hehe (fighting! = koreans) specially by Great Teacher Onizuka. Like Onizuka, we must see life as a never-ending greatness, live life to the fullest as they say.. and thats exactly what Im gonna do.

Of all my blogs (I have 5 blogs hehe), this one is probably my favorite. I want to fill this space again, this time with meaningful posts. I really want to share to everyone what is really going on with my life and hopefully they can learn a thing or two.

Blogging is becoming more popular these days. In case youre not aware, you can earn real money just by blogging. Im planning to make another blog just for this purpose. For the mean time Ive made one for my team, still under construction but it is worth checking. www.pacificgaming.blogspot.com.

To Fight...is to overcome anything in order to gain something..something that is important, something worth keeping. It is a nature for humans to fight especially if it will affect his life so much. Ive used the word "fighting" for quite some time now. Whenever Im down or when I have problems, my innerself will always tell me to fight! not to give up no matter what! But as I take a few steps in life, I just realize that no matter how hard you try..there are just some fights in your life that you just can't win. Anyway life is just like a 2 way street, someone wins while the other side loses. But who wants to lose anyway...sadness, loneliness, depression...these are just a few things a "loser" can experience. I always associate fighting with love. Because everyone is capable of fighting for the ones they love. But one of the greatest tragedy in life...is not being with the person you love. Love can be a funny thing sometimes, you love someone but she loves somebody else. How will you fight for someone..if that someone is fighting for somebody else.. sad enough but true. 2 weeks before, I really felt like a loser. The moment you expect love is the moment everything will become troublesome. But of course I dont want to be remembered as the guy who fell in love to a friend and got wasted in the process. For me it really doesnt matter how hard you fall, what matters most is how strong you got up. Maybe the biggest mistake I made is that I expected too much. True love doesn't expect anything in return. =) Whats important is that you have the ability to love, and to share this love with someone. When I come to think of it, maybe I'm not a loser after all. I know God is alive within me, because He is indeed a God of Love. . Maybe In His eyes, Im the true winner. Because Ive been honest, and I don't regret anything at all. The rain has stopped...It's time for me to move on. =)

The Way I do

Your kiss
Your smile
Your mind
Your sunlight in my eyes
I miss
Your breath
On my neck
When we whisper in the night

(Bridge)
Didn’t wanna hold you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do
Yeah…. Ohhh
The way I do…

[Verse 2]
Your touch
Your skin
Can’t believe the way you let me in
Don’t rush tonight
I need you like the ocean needs the tide

(Bridge)
Didn’t wanna hold you
Didn’t wanna need you so bad
Didn’t wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn’t wanna need you
Didn’t wanna need anyone
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountaintop all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look what you’ve done

{Chorus}
Now I can’t go on without you
I’m naked
I can’t fake it
Now I’m not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
Baby… The way I do…

I love you…
I need you…
I want you…



To my betterfriend, kindly please listen to this song. I'll sing this one for you. Messege sent to s0ci0path_07@yahoo.com

My favorite game with my favorite song.

more youtube entries...Im gonna revamp this blog for the next 2 weeks...I dont feel like writing although everyone around me can tell that Im not happy...need to finish that project...a new beginning for me...start working next week...

accept.learn. live. love.

Welcome to the world of Japanese Pop.

We had our oathtaking kanina. Frankly speaking ayaw ko naman talaga umattend. Hindi ko rin naman feel kasi, ewan ko ba. I only bought 1 ticket, solo flight lang ako. Pero inaya ko si Leo na samahan ako, napansin ko madami rin naman nag solo flight kanina. Maybe because mahal ang ticket 700 pesos.. kung hindi lang din dahil sa PRC license and some requirements eh hindi na rin ako aattend, thanks to Ate Clarice at pina alala niya sa akin. Alam na rin naman siguro ng iba dyan kung bakit hindi ako masaya kahit na CPA na ako. But my reason for being sad this day is not the same though. Im a very cheerful person, I believe it is everyone's choice to be happy, everyone has a discretion to be happy everyday. I can give a fake smile but you can see it through my eyes. This day is not made for us inductees, this day is made to commemorate our parents.. How I wish nandito ka Mama, so I can be proud of you in front of everybody, so I can gracefully clap my hands and tell you how much i love you. I miss you so much. We are equally triumpanth on this and I would like to thank you for everything you've done to us. We have lots of stories to tell and so much time to fill. I really hope we can see each other soon. Until then take care oki.

Hay naku nakakamiss mag aral. Parang kelan lang hindi nila ako maistorbo sa kaka-aral. Anyway sabik na rin naman ako mag work, kasi medyo napag-iiwanan na rin naman ako ng mga ka batch ko. I think mas magiging effective ako sa fieldwork kay sa sa studies ko. Yep inaanmin ko naman na medyo may katamaran akong mag aral, kaya nga madami akong absenses noon, ayaw ko kasi ng paulit ulit haha. Pero pagdating naman sa work eh hindi na ako magpapatalo, may work experience na rin naman ako naranasan ko nang inuumaga sa store noon at physically tired, this time i think I will be challenged mentally naman. Inaplayan ko ang apat na aud. firms so may natitira pang isa. Kung ako sana papipiliin, I really want to start my career sa mga auditing firms, kahit na alam kong mahirap at madaming nagreresign. I'll just have to wait for their calls, hopefully they will call me asap. For the mean time Im gonna pick my life where I left it. I leaved my team for how many months and what a time for me to come back. Let's see our schedule:

June 9-10 Asian Cyber Games - 2 teams kami bale. napunta ako sa team B kasi wala pa akong praktis. I expect us to finish at Day 2 unlike last year na first game eliminated agad courtesy of team 129SC, winner will represent the Philippines at the ACG,will be held at Singapore.

June 15 I Hooked Tournament - katipunan area 15k prize ^^

June 24 TEch Square Tournament - sa may paranaque, homecourt ng team ninja and teampapi 15k prize ^^

June 30 Tycoon Synergy P150,000 Tournament - wooops the biggest event to date! teams from Malaysia, Thailand, and Singapore will come here in the Philippines to compete. Will be held at Sm Mall of Asia. Team A has qualified already, and im in charge of Team B.

The qualifying for the World Cyber Games(WCG) has concluded already. Unfortunately I only finished 6th place, I missed 2 venues because of my board exams, but thats ok since my brother Ralf finished first, with only 1 lost I expect Ralf to do good in the playoffs. Winner of this event will represent the Philippines at the WCG to be held at Seattle this coming October plus lots of prizes. Here is the rankings http://esports.ph/rankings.htm

Finally the Dota Lan Season League was ought to continue this June after a month long break. We are currently ranked 10th (PPC) and 11th(Pacific). I will try my best to help the team since I'm the one in charge of picking line-ups.

All thanks to Ate Vange for her continuing support.

I passed the board exams. I'm speechless right now. Lets just say that im still absorbing this kind of feeling.. im so happy and even more than that. I feel so successful as of this moment, although I know a lot of challenges is already waiting for me out there. As of now I just want to enjoy my victory, and everyone is invited.

I would like to thank the following people ^^

All the staff and reviewers of IPRSD. I trusted them all the way, although Im always late during our first period ^^. They really took care of us especially me, just ask Sir Reyes and Mam Empleo about it haha.

All the reviewees of IPRSD. These people are really special. Our class is only compose of 40 students, so unlike in other review schools we are much closer to each other. We even had a Christmas party last December. They are like my 3rd family and I appreciate every one of them.

My family and relatives. Thanks for supporting me all the way, for providing me good foods, for keeping silent while im studying ^^ I know they believe in me eventhough they are not saying it.

To my Pacific friends. You guys are like my 2nd family already. Thanks for the company when I dont feel like studying, for all the laughters when I feel like frowning. Im back to our team so lets play again.

To my 4a3 friends and "collegues". Thanks for all the prayers. Thanks for all the greetings and calls, I really really appreciate it, thanks for remembering me all the way. I'll see you all soon.

To my precious Mother. I offer my success to you. I know you are so proud of me right now. I love you so much. And I'll see you soon ok.

To my other half, my twin brother. Thanks for everything. You know how much I care for you. My success is your success too.

To my "inspiration", Ms. Rochelle Antolin. I know we had made a gap at each other. A gap that is deep I dont know how to bridge. But nevertheless I wouldn't make it without your sweet name carved so tenderly in my heart. Thanks for everything. How I wish I could collect all the perfect words too. Hoping to talk to you again.

Most importantly, I would like to thank our Lord Almighty. Thank you Lord for guiding me through the tests, for giving me the gift of mind, for giving me all the things that I need. From now on I will be more close to you than before. I know this is just the beginning. But as long as you are with me I can overcome anything.

Last but not the least I would like to thank myself, Rayray. Thanks for being so understanding and patient. From now on I will love myself more, so others can love me more ^^

GG no re.

Wow redemption day has come. My first batch of exams are over. I cant believe Im still smiling. There's nothing to frown anyway. My secret is that I did my best to answer each questions. People think that I know everything, of course not. I just study my lessons along the way. Even though I didnt get high scores during the pre board I manage to gather my senses and continue studying until this day comes. God is good at all times. Whenever I ask Him for help He was there. I leave it all up to Him. Whatever the results may be I will still be smiling, coz I know I did my best, and I believe that He will do the rest.

Day 1 - Theory of Accounts - 80 items. too easy. =)some questions are just pretty plain.
- BusinessLaw and Taxation - 70 items. between easy and average. too many questionable questions.

Day 2 - Manegement Advisory Services - 80 items. between easy and average. the situitional case is too easy to get nervous. Some people told me that the October 2006 test is a little bit harder so you do the math.
- Auditing Theory - 100 items whoops. between average and hard. Some people cried after taking this test. Ive read a lot of materials but nothing was like anything in the test. It was a like a home-made test, questions are rephrased and modified. But I think I did fine here because I did not guess any of the answers.



I love this song so much. Fighting!!!

Come face the wind while spreading your wings.
It's a chance to fly away away and bring forth your strength.
Anxiety and pride fly in my heart.

I'm wandering around destiny touched by your faint smile.
While embracing each other this moment.
This moment full of hope, and the courage to love you deeply,
begins to move, binding together our two interwining hearts.

The brilliant light that shines upon us, awakens us now.
Rising up making a sound, carved out from that place.
Unhealable scar,swaying in solitude and anxiety.
I'm going far away from my existence.

Sometimes the best thing to do...is to do nothing...

Sexy Love
Ne-yo

My sexy love... (so sexy...)
[Verse 1]
She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my love
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

[Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Babygirl you know your my (sexy love...)

[Verse 2]
I'm so addicted to how she's the sweetest touch
Just in love
Still to much say that I simp and I'm sprung on I might be your boy
I can't you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can't think (of anything else I'd rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Oh, Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
[
Chorus]
Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love...)

[Verse 3]
Oh baby what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' til it goes back down
And I don't know what I would do if I would lose your touch
That's why I'm keepin' you around... my sexy love

I haven't written anything that makes sense lately. So let me try doing one before the year ends. I tried asking a friend whats is her greatest fear so far. And she answered me ... to love the wrong person again. And so I ask myself, does past relationships makes your former lover a wrong person? Definitely not. When you love someone all you can see is her beautiful side and accept all her flaws. When two people love each other, a wrong person does not exist. I think it is not the person who is wrong but the "love" itself. If we only love a person out of pity or we are forcing ourselves to be loved by someone, then that kind of love is wrong to begin with. We only label them as wrong persons because they hurted us or somehow broke our hearts. There is no such thing as perfect relationship. Love is always accompanied by hurt. The ultimate test for anyone is how to sustain your love for each other. The best thing you can do is to know the person first, but you can really never assess someone until you undergo the test of time. So if I will rephrase her answer then your fear is not that of loving the wrong person, but your afraid that you might get hurt again or better yet you are not yet ready to give your love to someone. If I ask this to myself, my fear is.. not to be love back by the person you love, because I know to myself that I had so much to give and yet I can't share it. Happy New Year to everyone!!

Sometimes its good to be back to your old self, but sometimes it can be scary too.