hmmm 1 month absent haha. nakalimutan ko na tong blog ko. Pero hindi, babalik at babalik ako dito para isulat lahat ng mga happy moments ko. And speaking of happy moments, ako na yata ang pinakamasayang tao as of this day. Birthday ko last November 25. Sa totoo lang eh wala talga ako balak mag celebrate ng bday. I was not so excited until 2 days before it. Pano ba naman ang daming hinanakit dito sa bahay hehe. Pero meron isang taong "nagpilit" na magsaya ako, at yun ay walang iba kundi si Rochy. She made me realize that I can be happy. Sinurprise nila(4a3)ako ng isang videoke hehe. Nakakataba naman talaga ng puso. At siyempre kinantahan pa ako ni Roch, hindi ko lang alam kung para sa akin talaga yung kantang yun hehe. Wow maraming maraming salamat po sa inyo. Ang masasabi ko lang eh "hintayin nyo ako dyan sa Makati ok?" haha

I have a new pet and his name is Fulbog. Stuff toy na super duper cute! Gift siya sa kin ni Rochy. Pakita ko sa inyo next time.

Rochy celebrated her birthday too last Dec2! Belated happy birthday po. Actually magkasama kami buong araw hehe. Kasali kasi siya sa isang singing exhibition (di naman kasi contest) that day sa may DAR, community day kasi ng kanilang church. Wow bilib talaga sa talent niyang kumanta. Nerbyosa nga lang. Tsaka sana ako nalang sana yung ka duet niya huhu. Yakang yaka ko naman yung second voice nung "We are the reason". I get to see the wonderful members of "acceptors" again. Ang saya saya talaga nilang kasama kasi sobrang hyper. Lalo na nung nanlibre na si celebrant sa may greenhills haha. Di ko alam na may tradition pala silang hotseat pag may bday! Ayun at parang na hotseat din ako haha siyempre meron isang napakatinding tanong na hindi pa masasagot sa ngayon. To Rochy thanks for allowing me to share that day with you! I really had a lot of fun! Tsaka aminin mo ang gwapo ko that day haha. Yung mga pictures sana paki share na lang sa akin ha. You are wonderful as always. Always stay pretty and strong. Madami nagmamahal sayo, and I'm on top of that list! mwah!

Wow its been a while na nagselos ako ng ganito. Halos hindi na ako makatulog sa sobrang selos hehe. Sabi ni Ek natural lang naman na magselos ako. Anyway kung anu man yun eh next time nyo na lang malalaman. Basta alam ko na ngayon kung anong dapat kong gawin. Alam ko na rin kung saan ako lulugar. At least "you" are honest with me. Know that Im not leaving without a good fight! Diba Dada. rayray Fighting!!

In case you dont know Rochy then here's our pic( galing sa friendster nya ahihi)

Wow ang dami kong review materials galing to kay Roch. Goodluck nga pala sa mga magtatrabaho na bukas. Classes also starts tomorrow. Nakakatuwa kanina pag uwi ko, meron kaming malaking Christmas Tree dito sa bahay! First time kasi nilang maglagay ng ganyan eh pero wala pa naman christmas lights. Para tuloy akong bumabalik sa pagkabata at naghahanap ng mga regalo sa ilalim haha. Anyway Christmas is just around the corner.

Belated Happy B-day to Sidney, salamat sa palabok at lechon manok.

Tsong Clash natin Mid Tsong! - rho

November na. Today is all saints day. Dami tao niyan sa sementeryo. Sa totoo lang hindi pa ako nakakapunta ng sementeryo pag Nov 1. Sabi nila masaya daw parang fiesta. Nov. 2 kasi kami pumupunta so malamang eh pumunta kami niyan bukas. Kaso wala ng tao pag Nov. 2, kami kami na lang mga relatives. Medyo malungkot nga ako pag undas kasi nagsisiuwian lahat ng mga tao kasama na dun mga friends ko. Pero masaya pa rin kasi nagkakasama uli kaming magpipinsan. Anyway ang importante naman eh maalala natin ang mga yumaong malapit satin.
There goes the blessings of death, you can get the pleasure of being remembered. And you will be remembered by all the good deeds you've done and beautiful memories you've left. The bad ones just got eradicated.

The CPA Exam results are already out. As in the news, UP got the no.1 spot followed byPUP I think. Anyway I am only concerned to fellow Thomasians, I wish I could get the exact figures of those who pass and those who fell short. I already know some of my friends who passed and I would like to congratulate all of you, you know who you are guys specially my family at 4A3. Your dreams start now.

Speaking of dreams. I watched Pinoy Dream Academy last night(accidentally I think, no I have a huge crush at Nikki Gil hehe). And what did I see, I saw a lot of sexy bodies haha. There is this one who lay down and remove her bra, how liberating. Its ok as long as there is no malice. Anyway the real deal is that everyone got emotional specially those who got nominated for expulsion. While they are crying I was laughing inside. You see eventually all of them will be remove from the show until a certain number of people remains. For me if I got nominated, I will just accept that, I just did everyone a favor didn't I? You don't falter as long as you give your best. But they are not like me and so are you. And I think that's the beauty of reality shows, you can learn the power human emotions.

Cheers!

After 3 years of waiting Final Fantasy XII is already out, at least in its pirated form haha. It came out just in time since I have nothing to do this sem-break. I've already reach the 40 hour mark as of this time. All I can say is that it's addictive and superb. There is no any game like it. It plays like an MMORPG, say goodbye to repetitive battle intros and victory poses because you can now move seamlessly between combat and exploration. I love the cast, they all looks cool together with their english accent. Personally the best final fantasy so far since ff7. This will be the last FF I will be playing for the next two years since PS3 is gonna be so expensive(500-600 dollars what the heck). I'm an FF geek, played all of them from I up to X-2 (I have a DS and Im gonna buy FF3 as well as FFXII-2). Im sure this game will be a hot topic for me and my friends for the mean time. Famitsu rated this game 10 out of 10.

We are debating who is more beautiful, Yuna or Ashe. mine will be Tifa.

It's only a matter of hours before the board exams. Tomorrow will be the day of judgement for us accounting graduates. Oh by the way I would like to congratulate myself for graduating already. Unfortunately I will be taking my licensure exam next year. But I am not saddened by the fact, I believe God has a plan for me. And so I believe too for my batchmates. Although instincts will tell us that not everyone will pass, I will pray for a 100 percent passing rate, nothing is impossible. I wonder how does everyone feels... because I too am nervous and scared. If there's one advice I can tell then I want everybody to fight. Fight your fears, fight for your efforts, even fight yourself, most importantly fight for your future, because our future depends on this. Goodluck and Godspeed.

FIGHTING!!

What a way to end my season. Team pacific landed on 3rd place at the I-pad tournament that was held a while ago. We have improved so much that we are already at same level of our most favored teams. Sad to say this was my last outing and I just hope I will be remembered as one of the main players of our team. Goodluck and Have Fun!

Congratulations to Team Flow for again dominating this tournament. You guys are so good. In behalf of the team I would like to thank you for having our teams immuned to each other. We respect each other so much and that is more important.

Thanks to Ate Vange for her continuing support to our team. No other sponsor/manager is more prettier than you. And to Kuya Vins for a successful tournament. Please support the gaming community! We really appreciate it.

Sayang ang Chain Frost -- rayray

Semester is almost over, but not for us at least. I don't know why I am so excited. Maybe because there is so much things I want to do. I am the type of person who likes to daydream. I daydream almost about anything. I felt stupid sometimes though because my friends always caught me in a state of "shock". It's not a bad habit I think. But too much of it may cast you into a world where you are not supposed to be. You keep hoping that these "things" will come true leaving your present world unnoticed. Lets not forget all the present blessings that we have.
Just like a famous question goes, Should we live life the way it was meant to be lived ?, or would you rather wake up everyday and live life as it is? my answer would be a mix of both.

Thanks to my lovely sister for buying my new eyeglasses. It looks good on me.

Cupid
112

Girl If I Told You I Love You
That Doesn't Mean That I Don't Care,
Oooh And When I Tell You I Need You
Don't You Think That I'll Never Be There,
Oooh Baby I'm So Tired Of The Way You Turn My Words Into
Deception And Lies
Don't Misunderstand Me When I Try To Speak My Mind
I'm Only Saying What's In My Heart

Cupid Doesn't Lie
But You Won't Know Unless You Give It A Try
Oh Baby, True Love
Won't Lie But We Wont Know Unless We Give It A Try

Girl When I Ask You To Trust Me
That Doesn't Mean That I'm Gonna Cheat On You
Cuz I'm Gonna Never Do Anything To Hurt You
Or Mislead You, I Love You

Baby I'm So Tired Of The Way You Turn My Words Into
Deception And Lies
Don't Misunderstand Me When I Try To Speak My Mind
I'm Only Saying What's In My Heart

Cupid Doesn't Lie
But You Won't Know Unless You Give It A Try
Oh Baby, True Love
Won't Lie But We Wont Know Unless We Give It A Try
Ain't No Doubt About It
Lord Knows, I Really Mean It
I Rather Die Before I, Before I Lie To You

Cant help but like this song, love is full of irony.

At last its over. I think I have reach the end of my pro-gaming career, at least temporarily. I've decided to retire from my team, the ever loving Pacific suites team. I need to focus more on my review this October because I will be taking the Board Exams this May 2007. I really like to play more with you guys but please undestand that I really want to pass with flying colors. Sad to say its really hard to balance your studies and vice so I have to give up my other "happiness". This will be the sacrifice I will make to myself and to my family. Anyway dont worry because I will still stay, just dont force me to play games. No more exhibition games, no more tournaments. Kala niyo nagbibiro lang ako no hahaha, pasensiya na talaga, hindi ako pa importante ha, meron lang mas importanteng bagay na kailangan kong pag tuunan ng pansin. I will support our team all the way. Farewell Team Pacific, taga bakas na lang ako pwede hahaha.

Hindi gg.

Just a quick post,

Happy Birthday to my friend Angela, hope your fine. (Sept 23)
Happy Birthday to my brother Kuya Jhoel. (Sept 24)
Happy Birthday to Rhea and Sebs. (Sept 23)

Malapit na kami magka internet uli sa wakas.
Malapit na ang board exam nila, goodluck.
Malapit na ang huling tournament ko.
I miss you all.

I went to Sm Megamall to witness the 2006 WCG finals day. Of course I came to support our friend Markpopo for starcraft and Arby Jao for Warcraft. Mark lose to Byron in a 3-0 match, too bad for him. Arby prevails over Ryu to win the WCG TFT. He will go to Italy to compete and represent our country. Congratulations and goodluck! Kita kits uli guys next year. The good thing about this event is that I get to meet new friends. This year's WCG is very successfull! Good work to all the marshalls.

Thanks sa libreng KFC! Daming fans ni Arby, ang gwapo mo kasi hahaha.

Easier
Kandi and Faith Evans

(chorus)
It gets...it gets easier
Without you
I won't feel right...I can't feel right
Without you
But it gets...it gets easier

(verse1)
I was in misery without you
I could not imagine life without you
It was such a painful thing to go through
To have you being taken away
But I...I dried my tears
Even though it took a couple of years
I guess I had to just let go of my fears
Of being alone...but it gets

(repeat chorus)

(verse2)
I thought my life was over without you
Thought I would be oh so sad darling
Cuz you left me here, to face all my fears
All by myself, with nobody else
Now that you're gone I just gotta move on
But my lovin's never changed
It'll always stay the same
I felt you were wrong
The lonely nights alone
I get weak then I'm strong
It gets easier
(repeat chorus)

(bridge)
Sometimes it's really hard to just let go
Don't feel like moving on...Oh yeah I know
Just breathin' air is hard to bear
Whe the one that you love is not there
Thoughts of you sit heavy on my mind
I always reminisce on our good times
I just take it day by day
I know that'll never be easy
But I can say it gets easier .

Another one of my timeless favorites.

September is up. I love September! Eto yung month na pwede kang mag relax kasi kakatapos lang ng prelims. Anyway pwede na ako mag relax kasi natapos na ang quest ko for WCG 2006. As usual talo pa rin. Ang hirap kasi talunin ni papa Arby. Meron naman libreng bag at one thousand pesos, last year three thousand *sigh*. Pero in fairness at nag iimprove ang esports gaming dito sa Pilipinas. Madami kasi ang sumali ngayon kesa last year, at magagaling pa sila kamo. Congrats nga pla kay Ralp and Mars for making it to top 6. Buti na lang sa May pa ang board ko at relax na relax pa rin kahit papano. Graduate na ako sa October!! hahaha

I can only update this blog, can't update my other two blogs because of that @#$%* broadband internet provider who can't even live up to their motto of "100 % service guaranteed".

I love September and anything about it!!

Nakakainis mga head ng WCG. Call time is 2:30 pero biglang binago naging 2:00 pm. Then sakto lang dating namin pero closed na raw haaay. Sana naman na inform agad kami sa change of time, on time naman kami dumating eh. 4 players lang naka register then nag start pa sila, anong klaseng qualifying yun eh apat lang sila. Sana man lang may grace period kahit 10 mins or mag accumulate muna sila ng mga sampung players bago nila nag start. Anyway ok pa naman ang standings ko at ng mga friends ko. Last 2 games before playoffs. Goodluck.

Nakakatuwa last Friday at nanalo ang team ko(pacific) vs Big apple. Kaso hindi nila ako pinaglaro kasi medyo nakainom na ako. Hindi ko na nga rin alam pinagsasabi ko nun hahaha Then nag Dani's Grill pa kami for celebration. Then diretso kina pareng Trap para magpahinga. Malaki na nga ang ipinagbago ng apartment nina Trap and Pj. Sobrang bait nitong magkapatid na to. Limang beses na nga ako natutulog sa kanila, pwede ka nga tumira dun kung gusto mo.

Happy B-day to my nephew Warren.

Laruin mo laro mo, lalaruin ko laro ko---- Ruin

I used to love the rain, yes no matter how hard it goes. But now I hate it a lot. Kasi napaka putik dito sa amin. Si Ralp sobrang inis kasi nasira ang kanyang mamahaling shoes, ako naman muntik nang madulas sa putik hehe.

Nakakatuwang eksena: Pababa kami ng stairs, kasama ko si Roch, Winnie and Jeff. Guess who kung sino nakasalubong namin. Si Joei and Jenna hahaha. In fairness medyo blooming si Joie ngayon. Di naman ako updated sa mga nangyayari pero mukhang together pa rin sila. Ayun at tumahimik bigla ang paligid. Basta ang alam ko nag "hello" naman ako with smiling face pa. Pero Im happy to see her really, matagal ko na rin kasi gusto malaman ang feeling pag nagkita kami, hindi rin naman pala masama. Masaya ako kasi nakasama ko sila uli, Ek, Dada, France, Maan, Mimi, Maya, Jm , Winnie, Jeff, and Roch. Almost 2 weeks na nga rin ako hindi nagpaparamdam, madalas ko kasi kasama mga pacific barkada ko. Board Exam is almost here. Do your best guys.

Pag gusto, bigayan mo.--Lutan

Medyo malaki na raw ang ipinayat ko. Papaano naman eh almost sampung kanto ang nilalakad ko araw araw simula nung lumipat kami ng house. At least may exercise ako everyday kaso lang sumasakit ang tuhod ko lately ka ka akyat baba ng road (papataas kasi yung daan bago ka makasakay ng jeep). Anyway sana magkainternet na kami kasi matagal tagal na rin di kita nakikita mother hehe at para makita mo na rin ang bago naming house. Malapit na nga ako mainis sa bayantel kasi ang tagal nila magkabit porke malayo yung lugar.

Happy 75th Birthday to my lovely grandmother. We love you so so much.
Happy Birthday to my brother Jonathan. Sana manlibre ka.

Never underestimate the heart of a champion --Chad

Say That
By Drops and Harmony

Verse 1:

Just when im feeling like we're getting closer
Lady you turn around and drift apart
And now you got me in a state of confusion
I just don't understand what we are
Tell me girl exactly what is that you doin
I know you're feeling my company
But is that all I am to you
Kicking back with someone knew
Is that all you want?

Chorus:

Say that you don't care and I'll walk away
Say that you don't give a damn and I won't stay
But if you feel the same way that I feel
Girl you gotta show it
Cuz girl I wanna know it

Verse 2:

Don't tell me that you don't know the situation
Girl I know you know what's goin' on
How we be chillin all day
And making love all night
And still I sense that something is wrong
Maybe there's a part of you that's scared and cautious
Maybe you just don't feel the same
Well whatever it could be
Baby just be straight with me
What exactly is it you want?

Last chorus:

What is it you feeling?
what is it you're needing?
I know you know what's going on
So if you feel the same way that I feel
Lady come on break it down
Tell what is it you want

One of my favorites, although it's sad.

I wanna congratulate my team for being co-hampions last Sunday's tournament at Snap and Play computer shop near De La Salle. Good job by all of us. At last for the first time we played as a team and know our roles. Its like hitting two birds in one stone since we get to beat Papi, who beat us last thursday in a very exciting match. I just hope that our success will continue. Pacific Team Fighting!!

Thanks to all the people who supported us and watch us play.

Team Arena= colly, onadz, kentot, odin, jony
Pacific Friends = vannessa and trap, rhea and nat
Team Flow for cheering us
Team Papi for a nice game, you guys are so good.
and Pacific boys, dami nyo kasi, salamat sa pagtulong nyong mag trashtalk hehe and of course Ate Vange mwah!

I am your coffee and you are my cream, pour us together and we are something.

It's been a while ala pa ring internet sa bahay. Pano kaya nila nakikita tong site ko hehe anyway ok lang naman mag comment basta wag lang bad mannered. Kaya ko nasabing max 2 meka kasi version 32 yung ginamit where in imbalance pa ang mekansm ok. Sa latest version eh na re-worked na ang mekansm kaya no item limitation na sa WCG Singapore. Anyway goodluck sa Team Flow (lead by papa Arby) and sa 129all stars sa pagpunta nila sa Singapore. Its payback time na. Dapat sa inyo eto-----> FIGHTING!!

Working up my new blog hehe. Fansite siya ng isang taong bumabagabag sa akin hangang ngayon. Ewan ko nga ba. Lagi ko kasi siyang naalala eh. Eh hindi ko naman pwede isulat dito kasi mabubuking ako. Anyway it will just float there in cyberspace and no one will know.

WCG2006 standings 5 points!

Yes umabot kami sa registration. Pang 32 kami, in other words we are the last team to register. Thank God now the stage is set. See you on Sunday.

Happy Birthday to my friend Grace. Hope you like my gift.
Happy Birthday to my friend Neil. Swerte mo walang klase today.

Oh my God as of this time 29 teams na ang nakakaregister na team for Sunday's tournament. Awa ng diyos at na send ko na mga requirments as of now. Hay nakakatense talaga. We really want to join this big event. Di namin ine expect na magsusulputan ang mga teams na to na parang kabute. Hopefully sana bukas mag reply agad yung esports para makapag relax kami kahit papaano. This tournament will not be the same without us. We are really eager to join. I pray na sana ma confirm na bukas for my friends sake. And dapat bumawi ka samin James, ikaw ang may kasalanan kung bakit tayo na dedelay hahaha And i really dont know why!?

Hay nakakalungkot talaga. Maglilipat na naman kami ng bahay. Siguro mga next month. Di naman ako dapat nalulungkot kasi ok naman tumira dun tsaka temporary lang naman at least for me. We will get to live with our relatives again like 3 years ago. Siguro kaya ako nalulungkot kasi ayaw tumira ni ralp doon. He opts to rent a dorm and live by himself. Di kasi ako sanay eh, for the first time in my life eh magkakahiwalay kami ni ralp. Di bale magkikita pa naman kami everyday.

He mother, our broadband is not functioning ok? No internet for us, no webcam on Sundays. Take care. I love you.

Everyone plays dota nowadays. Actually we are already bored playing this game. Much like the law of diminishing returns, we already reach the satisfaction point playing the game less and less. But what excites us is the competition that this game brings. Much like the counter strike days, more and more people are forming their own team/clans. Everyone wants to be the best, and so are we. So we contact other clans and set up a game or a clan match. I want to justify the fact that there is really gambling going on here. Gambling in the sense that there is a bet that is set and whoever wins the match wins the bet. Some may think that this is immoral. Others may say that we are a bad influence to the youth. What is really the point of having a bet? Let me cite the reasons.

1. A game without a bet is no competition.
2. Without a bet people can say "ok we lose, so what?"
3. A bet can hype the competition, people will get serious when there is something at risk.
4. People will try their best to win the game.
5. A bet will serve as a proof of your victory.
6. For some people, a bet can compensate their transportation expenses.

Of course we are not really after the money, what we are really after is the competition, the feeling that we need to play our best because something will be taken away from us. But we prefer tournaments more than exhibition games. Because being a champion is just plain priceless. Congrats to my team for winning 10000 pesos, yah that's how big our opposition bets, but we owned them anyway thanks.

I miss you!! Oo, Ikaw na nakakabasa ngayon nito. Miss na miss na kita. I'll see you around owki Mwah!

Sa totoo lang madami akong na mimiss na mga kaibigan. Kahit busing busy ako ngayon naalala ko pa rin sila. I treasure friendship the most. Wish ko lang sana naging parte ako ng makulay nyong buhay kahit papaano. And I'm meeting a lot of new friends lately. Im so blessed for a having a lot of good friends.

Dota NationWars Report:

The Philippine Bracket has concluded. Final game is between 129(Luzon) vs BeegBoyz(Davao). Of course the winner is 129, the no.1 seeded team here in Manila. There is no doubt in my mind that 129 will win this tournament. But I have to admit that the rules suck big time. No item limitation is way to noobish for us. There are lot of controversies regarding the rules that Team Mineski and Team Warpoint decided to forfeit their matches. I feel sorry for the Vis/Min Teams who keep on bragging that we luzon teams are scared of them. What's the point of playing when you know that the rules are not the actual rules that is played there in Singapore. Anyway we are in full support of Team 129. You guys are the best. Beat those Singaporeans so we Pinoy can get the good stuff out of them. Philippine Team Fighting!!

DOTA Version 6 Tournament Report

What a succesful tournament this has been. Almost all the great teams are here. There are 32 teams in all, a full grid tournament. As usual our team has joined this event together with our sister team La Magistral. We are also thinking about changing our team name already. Pacific Suites are ready to sponsor us. We really appreciate it, for them to notice our team's effort. Maybe next tournament as we have something to prove first this time. Our first game is a breeze, much of a warm up for me. Our real battle starts at round 2 where we are to play Team Warpoint, the 2nd seeded team in Manila. They beat us(unfortunately) in a long 2 hour game. Almost all of the people are watching our match. As if it was the highlight of the event. Some considers it as one of the greatest match ever held in the Philippine dota setting. We lose but were not whining. We know that we put up a good match. They can't really deny that we are still in good shape and considered as one of the top teams here in the Philippines.

I want to thank those people who supported us:
DynaQuest boys Joka, Koyos, Nat, Leo, Onadinz, Collymanz and friends
PacificSuites people Rhea and Friends(there are 6 of them)
Our Sister team La Magistral ( who beat the no.1 seeded 129.Allstars!)
Ate Vange and her husband (owner of Pacific Internet Cafe) who came all the way to MarketMarket to show their support. Thanks for coming.

Thanks to JB of 129 for organizing tournaments like this. Keep it coming.

Of course I want to congratulate my team for a job well done:
James, Ruin, Popoy, Abet, and Shobe who is not around but still supporting through text. =D

Where am I. Im here in the UST library doing some blog postings. Its been a while since I use the pc's here. Lots of freshmens coming in doing their online NSTP class discussions. After 4 years they really have not perfected the system yet. Problem such as logging in is still intact. Anyway I've added a Radio Blog on my site. It's quite amazing considering that the songs are streaming at 32Kbps. It's quite impossible to play the songs if your using dial-up, broadband will be no problem.

Check this out. lolz

Wow, anytime from now May will deliver her first baby! I wonder kung ok lang siya. Siyempre kinakabahan siguro. How would you react when the baby comes out. A person bearing your genes and blood will welcome this world. At such an early age no one can really say that she is already prepared. Pero ibahin nyo tong babaeng to. Carrying the child for 9 months, I expect her to be happy more than anyone. Aksidente man o hindi, having a baby is such a blessing. I salute her for being strong! This event will be the turning point of her life. Coz in the end it really doesn't matter how you fall, what's important is you stand up and get your life back. I don't have her number so I just wish her goodluck. We don't really talk each other that much, but I know that we, that includes me, care for you so so much. Because you are part of this one big family called 4a3. Lahat naman ng mga girls sa 4a3 magkaka-baby, nauna ka nga lang hehe, unless baog yung iba ouch it hurts it hurts you know haha. Sana may magpost ng pics kahit sa groups or friendster. FIGHTING!!!

Come Back
Donell Jones

I remember when we used to love
It seems like yesterday
You know that I understand
But I wish that you could stay
But you live far away
Seems so far away
Now I can't wait until the summertime
I know you'll be coming back real soon
Baby you know how much I'm missin' you
Said I'm missin' you, I'm missin' you

I been thinking about you lady
Things ain't been the same since you'be been gone
I can't live without you lady
So won't you comeback, comeback

No matter how long it takes I'll wait for you
As I watch the seasons pass me by
God only knows that there's no mountains I won't climb
Cuz you stay in my heart and always on my mind
Life without you is just an empty world, yeah
What once was clear is now a blur
And this is something that I can't ignore
I'm missing you, I'm missing you

I been thinking about you lady
Things ain't been the same since you'be been gone
I can't live without you lady
So won't you comeback, comeback
Said I been waiting
Love I just can't live without, oh yeah
Instead I've beenI been thinking about you lady
Things ain't been the same since you'be been gone
I can't live without you lady
So won't you comeback, comeback

Kakaiyak tong kantang to, sobra.

Someone ask me before how it was easy on me to shift gears. I never answered it seriously. Coz I never shift gears. I like you way way back before. Take note the word is "like". You are so damn charming that it's really hard for me to get away from it. That's the reason why I always greet you, I always want to sit besides you, why I always glance at you and meet your eyes halfway, why I always want to talk to you. The bottom line is I just want to be close, really, nothing more nothing less. I'm so happy when you chose me to be your comforter, I know I can be of help. It's the simplest way I can be close to you, to know you more before our college day ends. Being just a friend, I never expected anything more than that. It's really tragic for me that time, because I'm liking you more and more each day. But Im a natural acceptor, I accept things the way they are suppose to happen. You said that you are going to miss me, but it turns out to be a catalyst that will bring us more closer. You searched for me, and I continue to be your comforter. As you can see, It's all your fault. I feel like Im in a different world right now. Somehow it feels like I have been here before. But it's more beautiful now, and I like it here. I just dont know how long I can stay. I wish I can find here what I'm looking for. And by the way...Thanks for everything. If I show my heart, would you be the one that I love.

E.G.G. (Extreme Gaming Ground) Market! Market! Presents:

DOTA Version 6 Tournament - BOUND FOR GLORY!

Respect is always earned not given!

(Philippines first ever alternate all pick tournament!)

5 on 5 Single Elimination Prize:

1st Place: P10000 + 5 Western Digital 200 GB Sata2 Hard Disk

2nd Place: P4000 + 5 Sapphire X550 256 MB Video Card

3rd Place: P2000 + 5 Astone Item (no specifics yet)

July 2, Sunday; 10 AM call time

Registration: 250/person; You can either register at 129 Internet Cafe or in E.G.G. Market Market.

EXACT LOCATION: #323 Xanland Place Bldg. Ground Floor Katipunan Ave. Loyola Heights Q.C.

TAKE NOTE: The tournament will take place in E.G.G. (Extreme Gaming Ground) Market! Market! and not in 129 Internet Cafe.

EXACT LOCATION: Level 4, Food Choices, Market! Market!, Bonifacio Global City, Taguig Ladder Elimination Format:

*Teams will be divided into 2 brackets ( A and B ) each consisting of 16 teams at maximum.

*Teams will pick a number (from 1-16) in a box. If for example a team picked number 1, then that team will fight whoever picks number 2 (and then 3 versus 4, 5 versus 6, and so on…).

*If ever there are 2 teams joining from the same group or clan, both of them may request to have different brackets.

Extracted from phgamers.com

DOTA National War: Philippines Vs. Singapore

A joint collaboration between Rapture Gaming Pte Ltd and Ocean Technology & Media

Exclusive Broadcasting Partner: Rapture Gaming Network

Official Gaming Platform: GG-Client

Organized By: www.gg-game.com

Tournament Format :
Single Elimination
16 invited teamsPreliminary: Philippine

Preliminary starts June 23, 2006Singapore Preliminary starts June 23, 2006Time: 20:00 GMT +8 (8pm ph/sg time)

Teams are given a window period of 4 days, 23rd June (Friday)to 26th June (Monday) to play your first match. Subsequent matches from Quarter Finals to the Finals will have to be played on 27th June (Quarter finals) 28th June(Semi finals) 29th June(Finals).

The champion of the Singapore league will be facing off against the Philippines’s finest in best of 3 games. RGN, the exclusive broadcasting partner of this tournament will be shout-casting the finals. So be sure to catch the VODs which will be released as soon as possible!

And may the best team win!
Extracted from Dotasg.com

Series Over. Miami Heat is the 2006 NBA Champions!






















Miami's Motto "15 Strong" Finals MVP Dwyane Wade
gg

NBA Finals Fever is on! Dallas Mavericks Vs. Miami Heat. Almost everybody talks about this. Its really quite funny how everyone shows support to their favorite teams. Mine is the Miami Heat. Haha They prove them wrong! After losing Game 1 and 2 to Dallas, they came up winning the last 3 games at home. Now they are up 3-2 and only one game away from being 2006 NBA champions. History shows that 75 percent who won game 5 with a series tied at 2-2 takes home the championship(since they employed the 2-3-2 format). But my trust on Miami Heat is based on their style and players. Shaquille hasn't been able to dominate the game. Although the "Superman" is contained the "Wonderboy" is here to save the day. It was all Dwyane Wade who carries the heat one win away to championship. Averaging 42 points in the last 3 games, the only one I can remember who plays with this kind of game is Micheal Jordan. If you watch Wade you can actually see some shades of MJ. Luckily for Dallas, it will be their home game. Unluckily for them, they need to stop Dwyane Wade. Oh my where can I buy Wade's Jersey? Fall seven times, Stand up Eight.

Let me tell you something about my father. His name is Leonardo Santos. Let's just call him Nanding. Shall I say that he is not that goodlooking. (agree mother?) He is dark, has thick eyebrows, smokes 1 pack of cigarettes a day, has a burn mark on his arm, and has a tatoo on his leg. It's really quite a miracle that mama and him got hook up because my mom is such a very very beautiful lady. My mom used to say that he don't like papa that much. Its quite a long story actually and there's an act of kidnapping if you are curious. But mama learn to love him and accept his flaws. With that they produce 5 siblings and that includes me. My mom lives now in Canada. My papa lives now in Malabon. Another long story of how it happened, but papa is one of the reasons why we got scattered now. It almost reached to the point that we almost exiled him as our father. But time heal all wounds. He is a different man now. I think he already realize all his mistakes. Though almost all of us have forgiven him, we can not bring the past back anymore and live together again. But we still visit him ocassionally now that he already has 2 grandsons. I never liked him. But I respect him. Happy Father's Day.

It's a been a while since my last post. Hay, sa totoo lang madami akong gustong isulat. Pero sa tuwing mag log ako eh parang may pumipigil sa akin isulat ang aking mga saloobin. Blogging has been my past time. This is were I can shout all of my feelings. Siguro kasi natatakot ako na mabasa ng mga taong tinutukoy ko ang blog ko. Eh hindi naman ako journalist although may freedom of speech din naman ako pero im still bound from my feelings. Anyway im still here naman. Sa totoo lang wala akong ginawa kundi magbasa ng ibang blogs! Nakakatuwa kasi ang dami kong natutunan haha. Kamusta na nga pala si Rayray. Well, ok lang ako. Medyo tumataba na naman. Palaging puyat as usual. Dalawin ko daw sila sa library. Pasensiya na pero wala pa akong ID. Hayaan nyo one of these days dadalawin ko kayo. Every friday nga pala is 4a3's get together lunch. Nakakatuwa naman at naiisip ni Grace na magkitakita kahit once a week. Pero sa totoo lang eh nahihiya pa akong magpakita sa inyo. Pero kung alam nyo lang pinagprapray ko kayo palagi. Na sana eh 100 percent kayong pumasa sa board, 4a3 for fighting!! I send a secret prayer up above and put my heart away. So that you could be free..

Religion has never been an issue to me. I think God is not that cruel that he will not save you if you are in the wrong religion duh. As long as we have faith then God will continue to watch us. We need religion so that we can be guided. So it's important to choose a religion that will fit our needs. Some are solemn yet some are lively, some are technical while some are casual, but in the end they will all claim, that they are worshipping the same God. I was born an INC, but I think im already in the right age to at least try some other forms of worship. I graduated at a prestigious Catholic school, so am very much aware what Catholism is. What I am curious about are the Born Again's. I have some knowledge of what they actually do. But more or less, Born Again's form of worship is known for being lively and catchy. My friend Rochy is a Born Again Christian. Out of my curiosty I tried to ask her a few questions, and I do plan to attend some of their services. Yesterday I joined their fellowship activity, the purpose of which is to create a harmony between churches. I was so astonished of how these people have such a positive outlook in life, just what I think everyone of us needs. I looked at everyone's eyes, and all I saw was radiance, illuminating all the dark shadows of every people in there, and that includes me. For the first time in my life, my soul felt alive. Their songs were all wonderful, the tunes and specially the lyrics. Of course I didn't know the tune but my heart was singing and my body just wanna let it all come out! I love concerts coz I love to jam, and it was just like a concert but it was for God. Maybe that's why they called it Born Again, because many have converted and somehow they feel like their souls were being born again. I still need to hear their teachings because that's important too. But I had so much fun!! I feel so blessed after the activity, and its true.

Aside from having fun, I also met a lot of people. There are 3 churches all in all, but the Reach Community Fellowship is where Rochy is included. They are not that big in numbers, in fact there are only about 30-40 members. So they are much like a family whenever they have worship services. Oh and they called themselves "The Acceptors"! What a coincidence for me, because that is my motto in life, "Learn to Accept, and everything will be easy." This is my personal motto, I made it base on my experiences. I think that it is true in every aspect of life. Whenever I have troubles, I learned to accept first the event, and with that I can think of a solution without any worries or move on with my life with determination. I also learned to accept people for what they are. And of course I learned to acccept my own weaknesses, which gives me much room for improvements. The word acceptance itself has other meanings. To accept sometimes is to say "yes", to "receive", worst is to "let go". People tends to "reject" than to "accept". Because when we accept and "receive" something, we need to forego something of "equal value". And that is life my friend, but we only need to accept one thing in this world, and that is no other than God.
Deep inside this armor, The warrior is a child.

I have great news, at least for us and my colleagues. There will a be full blown dota tournament this June and July. And it's not just any ordinary tournament, it's gonna be Philippines Vs. Singapore! The rules and regulations were not yet finalized but the participating teams are already known. Since this is an "invitational" event not everyone can join, only those teams that are invited can fight for the country. And of course we are one of the participants! I am so proud of my team, it's just like being nominated in an awards night. It just shows that we are one of the best, at least here in the Philippines, and we are ready to kick some Singaporean's ASS. >: D
We will give them partida, I think we will gonna use Singapore Rules.

Umatend ako ng graduation kahapon. Nakakatuwa naman at kahit na mainit ang panahon eh masaya ang lahat. Masaya ako at nakita ko silang lahat, masaya rin kaya sila at nakita nila ako ayaw ko naman talaga pumunta eh kasi bitter ako nung una hahaha Anyway nag enjoy naman talaga ako kasi ang dami kong nakitang mga beauties. Yung iba di ko akalain na may igaganda pala hahaha nag iibang anyo pag nag aayos. Kabilang sa mga beauties na nakita ko, mga natural na magaganda to ha, si Ek, Maan, Xindy, Angie, Michelle, Eda, and Rochy. Si Winnie late kasi pero malamang "fabolous" rin yun as usual. Gawin ko ba namang red carpet ang gradutation haha Nakita ko rin si Mr. AMV himself. Happy Graduation to all.

Happy B-day kay pareng Lem. Inumaga na rin tayo haha
We were meant to be, for eternity. Its plain to see, im living just a fantasy.

Nakakatuwa, meron na palang cellphone na worth 500 pesos ngayon hahaha. Text nyo ako! My number is 09063154472. After a year and a half na wala akong phone. Ang cheap nga eh worth 500 pero in fairness favorite model ko to 7110, kasi cellphone ito ni Craig David sa mtv ng Seven Days hahaha tska asteg pa rin kahit luma na. Thanks to Mark for selling me his cellphone hahaha presyong kaibigan talaga.

Nakasalubong ko si Sir Agamata kanina. Nakakatuwa naman at inackwoldege nya ako. Nagkausap kami at ang sabi nya eh pagbutihan ko daw. Tama nga naman siya, na yung mga binibigay niyang exams dati eh pang board level na nga. Although marami ang hindi gusto ang kanyang istilo ng pagtuturo, para sa akin eh siya pinaka-paborito kong professor. Gusto ko maging katulad niya balang araw hehehe
Dahil sa sobrang wala kaming magawa ni pareng Harold kanina eh nagawa naming mag mall hopping. Mula SM san lazaro papuntang Greenhills. Nag ka canvas kasi ng psp games, minabuti ko na ring mag canvas ng cellphone hehe.
Buti na lang at wala ng klase, dahil kung meron malamang nasa hot seat na naman ako. Kina Dada, France and Maya, sorry na lang ha at bigla akong umalis. =) Ang dami nyo kasing tanong eh. Ang masasabi ko lang eh masayang masaya lang talaga ako ngayon. I know I am always be just a friend. But if you look my way I'll make sure you'll never hurt again.

Eventhough I didn't get enough sleep, somehow I feel good today, the best way to start my week. I went to school today, expecting to have two retakes of my summer courses. To my surprise I only took one. I passed the harder subject(MS), and that I can not believe. Especially when I knew that some of my friends, who are doing better than me, need to retake. The only thing I can do is to show my support to them. I waited till they finished the test. And to my surprise, the retake was much harder because of time constraints. They were only allowed to take the test for only an hour and a half, that was unfair! I will just pray that everyone will pass, and everyone will.=)
After taking my retake of IAC4, I took my real test for the day which is my aud prob finals. Sir James was asking us to have our lunch first, but me and Shebangz disregard and took the test right away. I have to give credit to Shebangz for finishing her exams too, I really find her funny but serious when the time requires. When the time reached 12 pm, I felt a sudden gush of headache, I knew for a fact that my body is already famished. I didn't noticed Joie when she entered the room. But I saw her hand trying to give me something, a piece of paper. I recognize her voice of course, but the only word that passed my ear was the word "roch". I can't get out the room because im not yet finish. Luckily for me she instructed J.M. to be the carrier of my present. What's the word, that's the word! errrrrrr

Looks like I have to postpone my proposed "on blog leave" scenario for a while, im just too happy the last few days, and happy moments need to be on record.
First of all, I would like to congratulate all of my classmates for finishing their summer course. I can almost see their trials everyday, why wouldn't I... it's written all over their faces!! Almost everyone have eyebags, pimples(lolz), some have colds, while others are just out of themselves. At least none of their are crying, except for me of course. Friday was the last day of summer, and to my dismay I just cry, maybe because everyone were dismissed early and the whole building was suddenly empty, maybe because everyone has their respective toga already, maybe because my summer course is not yet finished, or maybe because I wasn't able to give Rochy her present. To my luck, I was not alone. Niel and Erika share the same curse as mine. I went to DQ and spend a little time with my friends there. But I prefer to be alone that time and cheer myself with good music. I was about to go home through asturias when I saw Ate Angel and Ate Jo buying fishballs. They invited me to chill at Tapsi. I come with them since I have nothing to do. To my surprise the whole gang is there, Ate Mau, Ate Vera, Ate Clarice and Ate Anna! They all want me to stay and so I did. I had a great time chatting with them. They even squeze "delicate" information out of me! And that I cannot tell. It's really funny now that me and their group has this "big big big secret" which will serve as our bond.
They all thought that I am a good man, being a boyfriend in particular. All I can say is that is not true. Yes I exhibit utmost fidelity, but sometimes it is not really enough. Even love is not enough to nurture a two and a half year long relationship. I had my own issues and flaws. There is the saying that "pag ang babae ang nagloko, ibig sabihin may pagkukulang ang lalake", and that is true. Everything is chain reaction, and if you could only trace the root cause, I believe the fault is mine.
Saturday, me and my friends enters a small time tournament. And since our rivals and oppositions were not there, we easily won 1st place. And we ate at Cely's like we always do using the money we have won. Late at midnight, we fought one of our rival teams at their homecourt. We could have won the game but shit happens. One of my friends got an error and the game was reset at the last save point. In other words we lost. Every spectator there agree that we could have won the game. That's when I realize that these people were not just ordinary friends. Yah we lost big time and even pointing at each others mistake. But we never been this close before. We are more like brothers now. I can see that even without this game that binds us, our brotherhood will stay and play.
Sunday, I woke up 10 am in the morning. With my hair raised so high, Ralf and Che entered the room. They invited me to watch The Da Vinci Code. Of course I couldn't resist that especially because it's a treat. We went to Greenbelt and fortunately we were able to buy 3 tickets at 2pm. The fun part is that my seat was so far from them, about 8 seats apart. Anyway it doesn't matter as long as I can watch the movie. The movie was not that friendly if you havn't read the book. It was 2 and half hours long. Overall I think the director was fair at making the movie. It wasn't scandalous at all. As for me it didn't corrupt me at all, maybe because I believe that it was only pure fiction. No spoilers here, just go watch it for yourself.
My heart is filled with joy lately. Maybe because someone is filling it unconsciously. It takes two to tango, but sometimes you can love someone without expecting love in return. Love has it's risk too. Just like ate Vera said "nagmamahal ka ng palihim". You just want to be with that person, because she can make your "butterfly" in your stomach flap their wings, without even thinking about love itself. This is my longest post yet. All I do is think of you, I cant deny that's all I do.

Hey Mama, Happy Mothers Day!! Today is your day. Too bad we can't spoil you like we always do. I can only guarantee that your in good health, since your getting slimmer every week. At your age, your much slimmer than any mommy out there! Thanks for everything. We love you so so much!! Mwah!

In 1-2 weeks time everyone will be busy reviewing. Hay naku mamimiss ko kayo lahat. Syempre pati ako mag rereview. Nakikita ko na ang mangyayari sa akin. Don't know still kung makakapag-board ako this October. Kung sa May eh di mag dalawang review ako. It's ok naman basta ang gusto ko isang take lang ako ng board. It's friday and I can relax. Nag inuman kami kaninan nina Leo, Niel and Gie. Yes si Gie ang aking darling, pero hindi na ngayon ha. I get to talk to her, and I'm happy. Kahit malayo na tayo sa isa't isa kahit dati pa, alam ko strong ka so konting tiis lang at makakaraos ka rin. Some things do change, but some things do not. You are still the Gie I know after all this time, vibrant and funny. It's really nice to see you again. Hindi naman lingid sa akin na meron ka nang iba, Im really happy for you. I can't blame them to fall for you, kasi you are one of the most lovable person I know *wink* so goodluck and take care. As for me, I can now move on with my life. Meron na rin naman ibang tao na nagpapasaya sa akin. = ) Nagtataka lang ako bakit ang dami mong alam kahit hindi naman tayo naguusap hahaha sino kaya nagkukwento sa yo, malamang isa sa mga classmates ko lolz.
Anyway malapit na ang graduation nila. Hmmmm the truth is I have mixed emotions about this. Eventhough passing the board is more important than graduation, still a part of me wants to be a part of this special event. Graduation is still graduation, a culminating event and a happy one. Im happy for everyone, but I'm sad for myself, make me feels like I have nothing to be proud of. But just like Ate Clarice said, I must look at the brighter side of things. And I can clearly see it.
Hmmm may bago akong crush, teka hindi naman ata bago kasi matagal na rin siyang object of affection ko. Ang cute cute niya kasi. Ang sarap "sanang" kurutin. Nakakagigil sobra. Kung pwede lang arghhhh. Wow, kiti invited me to her multiply site. Nakakatuwa naman. I have more reasons to smile. Thanks.

Ahhh its 3 am in the morning. I just came back from a very hecty schedule. In case you're wondering it's nothing but competition together with my friends. Oh and we made it again up to 2nd place, not bad at all. Congratulations again to my team. Oh I need to go to bed... im soooooo tired. Hey Ek you just reminded me of that secret lolz. Actually there is no secret at all because you didn't tell me, thats too bad. Im just joking of course. Good night..zzz..zzz...akoy alipin mo kahit hindi batid, aaminin ko ako'y minsan ay manhid.

Congratulations to our team. We won 2nd place last major dota tournament held at Market Market E.G.G. Eventhough we are so tired to finish the whole tournament, we did our best! But the finals where not that spectacular because we have no energies left. Anyway it was 129 again who beat us but this time at the finals, great improvement. We have lots of adjustments to do and I think we are back to our previous level, everyone is acknowledging us now.

Thanks mother for my wonderful iPod video. I really like it and im abusing all of its features right now. I am just a gadget geek. You changed my point of view, coz baby, you are the exection to the rule.

Today Im gonna chill with my guys. We're having a tournament at Market Market. Goodluck again to all of us. We are so much better now. Isa sa mga madalas pinaguusapan ng mga tao ang... multo. Nakakatuwang isipin na meron palang multo dito sa kinauupuan ko ngayon. Pero hindi pa naman siya nagpapakita sa akin, at huwag naman sana. Matapang naman ako pagdating sa ganyan. Sayang at hindi ko naabutan ang baby nina Kuya Ati. Napakaganda daw nung baby, maputi at singkit, nagmana sa tito niya. Kaya lang mukhang mapupunta siya sa iba kasi hindi pa ready si Ate Lyra. Kanino kaya galing ang anghel na yun,mukhang artistahin pag laki eh, ganunpaman kung i-adopt ka nila eh winewelcome na kita hangang ngayon bilang aking ikatlong pamangkin. Meron kaming Videoke machine dito sa bahay, para siyang jukebox. Ang kapal nga ng song lists eh. So far eh hindi ko pa siya ginagalaw. Buti na lang hindi kami nagkantahan kagabi, kasi lasing na lasing na ako hahaha Dun sa sakayan ng jeep, madalas sumisilip, dun sa sakayan ng jeep, laging naiinip.

Napakahiwaga nga naman ng pag-ibig. Ang alam ko sa sarili ko eh ayaw kitang makita. Kasi feeling ko wala rin naman akong kwenta. At tsaka wala naman akong karapatan magalit kasi buhay mo yan. Pero as usual nagagalit ako, pero sa sarili ko na lang yun. Ang totoo eh gusto kitang kamustahin pero pilit na umiiwas ang pagkatao ko. Sa bandang huli eh nakakalungkot, kailangan na lang palipasin. Pinagdadasal pa rin kita hanggang ngayon. Nandito ka pa rin sa pagkatao ko. Sana mag krus uli ang landas natin, at makausap man lang kita kahit saglit lang, pag hindi na ako naiilang sayo. Pasalamat na lang ako at ikaw pa ang unang pumapansin sa akin, salamat ng marami. Whenever I had the courage to love somebody new, it always falls apart coz they just cant compare to you.

All I can say is Thank God Its Friday! My body is craving for my bed! My eyes are demanding for a rest! At last! Happy Bday kay Bianca este kay Ena pala. Sarap ng ice cream! Naka 1 pint ata ako pag pinagsamasama eh. Pero sayang naman kasi kung matutunaw hehe. Hmmm there is an event that happened that can break my heart, si Marson talaga lakas mang trip. Hay naku kung ano man eh hayaan ko na nga, ayaw naman kasi sabihin eh, tsaka I think its a joke, and what could possibly break my heart nowadays, absolutely nothing, because its broken already bwahahaha.Zzzzz..Zzzzzz...As I sail with you across the finest oceans, On our way to find the keys to our emotions..

At last, after a month of waiting, my pc has been repaired. And it's much faster now I think. Now I can write again and chill at least. Having a whole day schedule this summer is very tiring. My sleeping time is deteriorated again. I have no choice but to wake up at 2:00 o clock in the morning and study. Because the tendency in the afternoon is to go home and sleep...and sleep till your brain cooldowns. Anyway everything right now is a challenge for us. Since this will be the setting when we start reviewing for the board. It can really get sad in the afternoon, because my special class is dismissed at 4 pm, and wala na akong naabutan sa mga friends ko! Nawawala na lang ng parang bula hahaha sa totoo lang kahit ako eh hindi mo makakausap ng matino ngayon. Masyadong occupied lahat ng tao. I need to stock my stresstabs naubos na ata. Sama mo na rin ang vitamin E. Tsaka sandwich sana hehe. So sick of love songs so sad and slow, but why cant I turn off the radio.

So far im enjoying my summer classes, eventhough it's very tiring. Our class starts at 7:00am and ends at 4:00pm, with only one hour lunch break it can really get dizzy in the afternoon. It's my first time to have a special classes, and I find it fun, especially because I have new classmates and most of them are boys, and with a funny professor too! hmm most of them are bringing baon every lunch, some have sandwiches while some have rice meals, I wonder what foods can I bring. What's new.."she" got a new hairstyle again huh, and someone has been asking my comment about that. All I can say is she got a nice haircut, it suits her face well, simple and refreshing, it's really nice to see her again, especially her smiles! The truth is I miss everyone, goodluck to all of you. Wag ka matakot na umibig at lumuha, kasama mo ako.

Wow its official, bagsak ako sa auditing. Eversince naman I had this 50/50 feeling. Tapos na ako malungkot, kasi nalaman ko na rin a week before the clearance. Syempre kailangan ko na uli bumangon. Kung bumagsak man ako, alam ko kung bakit. At kung meron man nalulungkot ngayon eh alam ko na ikaw yun mama. All I can say is that Im sorry.. at napabayaan ko ang studies ko. Na overlooked ko pagiging 4th year, kala ko makakapasa ako ng walang problema. Sabik na sabik pa naman akong mag review. Kung na-disappoint man kita ngayon eh pasensya na po, wish ko lang sana wag mawawala tiwala mo sakin. Ako pa rin ang bunso mong magaling. And I'm so much focused now, I should have done it sooner though. Now I realize that time is essential. I almost forgot that I need to succeed in my studies so that we can see each other again. So we just have to wait a little more...just a little. Thank you for your understanding.
A petition to pass those who are short up to 7 points, sounds like good news but still contingent.

Hmmm Canceled ang outing, mabuti naman. Kasi kung konti lang ang sasama eh hindi rin masaya. So sana naman next time eh madami ang makakasama at ayaw ko na makakarinig ng hindi pwede. Pero baka hindi na ako makasama next time, sa tingin ko lang. Malakas talaga ang kutob ko na kasama ako sa mga bumagsak sa auditing. Pag kinutob pa naman ako eh nagkakatotoo. Pero di bale, ready naman ako kung sakaling magkaganun nga. Wish ko lang sa mga klasymets ko na pumasa sila lahat. Dapat 100 percent. Makakapasa naman lahat delay nga lang ako kung baka sakali. Mauuna lang kayo nang ilang buwan, pero bukod dun wala namang mababago. To be standing here at all, I must be invincible.

One thing I hate about vacation, is that I'm stuck in this house. It's not that I can't get out here, my allowance is cut down to almost nothing oh my. Anyway I still have my own ways of getting money. What else can I do, sleep all day of course. Oh the benefit of sleeping, is the chance to have dreams. And it's "you" again huh. But your not smiling anymore, I wonder why.
When I see you smile, I can face the world...

Wow my day is almost over. Hmm ano bang mga ginawa ko ngayon. Let us see...
6:00 am~ nagising ako at naligo
7:00 am~ nag breakfast sa may kanto, kumain ako ng "pares"!!
8:30 am~ pumasok ng library, nasa may humanities ako.
9:00-9:30 am~ natulog ako ng saglit
10:00 am~ dumating si carlo at nakipagchikahan habang nag rereview.
12:00 pm~ bumili ng ice coffee sa may colayco canteen
12:30 pm~ nangulit sa classroom specially kay roch
1:00-3:00~ nag test sa auditing, multiple choice!!
3:30 pm~ naghilamos sa may cr hehe
4:00 pm~ sinamahan si Ek na bumili ng antivirus sa recto.
5:00 pm~ nagpunta sa DQ at nakichikahan sa mga friends
6:00pm-7:30pm~ nag-jogging sa may UST
8:00pm~ nakasabay ko si Grace sa may jeep OMG!
8:30pm~ naghiwalay kami sa may Jollibee, at secret....
9:00pm~ nakarating ako sa bahay, kumain ng jumbo hotdog.
11:00pm~ nakipaginuman sa barkada ni kuya, palibhasa lasing na sya.
2.00am~ natapos ang inuman at nakuha pang mag post sa blog.
Ang dami pala nangyari ngayon. Mukhang tama si Maya tungkol sa kantang "Sakayan ng Jeep" pati nga ako nagulat, pero at least nakita ko siya kasi mukhang hindi siya makakapunta sa bacalauraete mass bukas. Masarap ang tulog ko ngayon kasi mukhang may tama na ako *hic*
It's like I've never been here before. Look at you now, I don't wanna wake you...

I have a new layout! And I find it so beautiful. Featuring Aeris of Final Fantasy 7. And I simplified it too except that the tagboard is now compressed. I decided to change because the naruto layout won't load, maybe because the source is no more available. One more test to go. I hope everything will be alright. No romantic updates huh. But I do feel romantic lately, I wonder why. At least Im more happy. Because a lot of people are making me happy!I really want to let loose as soon as tomorrow is over. I want to have fun! Girl, Im digging your energy. And I'm digging what you telling me.

Finals na next week. Goodluck fellas! I'll pray for you all. Let's do our best.
Wow, alas 6 na pala ng umaga at kakauwi ko lang, sarap kasi ng samahan natin, matalo man tayo pero walang tatalo sa pagkakaibigan natin. Pasensya na exams ko pa eh at mukhang matutuloy pa ang class outing namin this week. Hmmm natatakot ako at meron atang binabalak tong si Ek at Roch samin sa swimming haha. Oo sumasakit ang mata ako lately pero parang gusto ata nito umiyak kanina. May nakita kasi siya na hindi nya dapat nakita. Ayan nabuhos ko sa kalaban namin ang inggit na aking nararamdaman, naawa tuloy ako. Pero at least hindi obvious hahaha
Habang tumatagal, lumalala, laging nagwawala. Tumitindi, umiinit, sumasakit ang dibdib.

Time heal all wounds, yeah its true. Eventhough im not in the picture anymore, Im happy for all of you. Your friendship proves to be priceless. Thanks for all the good times : D.

As for me, everything is clear now. I woke up this morning with smile on my face. Because im looking forward to seeing "you". Eventhough you know nothing about all of this, but somehow I just want everything to stay as it is. It seems like you're getting beautiful each and everyday, and I find you so funny too. Long before, I have adore you just the way you are... yes even before our classmates began teasing us. You can call me as your secret admirer. But your admirer is now your secret lover, and no one can blame me for that..not even you. I may not know you that much but I can only describe you in one word, absolutely "lovable"! Its amazing how you knock me off my feet, everytime you come around me I get weak.

Grabe, hindi ko alam kung pano pa nagkakasya ang sandamakmak na papel sa mumunti kong bag. Mukhang wala na naman akong natutunan ngayong araw na to. Naubos kasi ang oras ko sa kakakopya ng mga sagot. Di bale marami naman akong oras ngayon. Mukhang kailangan ko na mag aral ngayon dahil hindi naman ako makakapasok sa library bukas. Korek, sa ikaw anim na pagkakataon eh nawala ko na naman aking i.d. Alam ko na kung bakit ako madalas inaantok at napapagod. Kailangan ko ng palitan ang eyeglasses ko. Di lang nila napapansin pero sira na ang kanang bahagi nito. Malabo na rin siya at mukhang fully depriciated na. Medyo napamahal na rin sakin tong salamin na to, may istorya kasi kung papaano ko ito nabili. Ma try ko naman mag contacts for a change baka bagay sakin. Mabuti na lang at umambon kanina kahit konti at medyo nahimasmasan ang init na dala ng panahon. If I just breath, let it fill the space between, you'll see everything will be alright.

I told myself, "no post for today" but here I am. I'm not myself these past few days. Kahit parang ok lang ako alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako ok, as in hindi ako mapakali or palaging nagwowonder utak ko. Ang dami ko kasi iniisip eh! 2:27 na pala ng umaga, mukhang napasarap ang chat ko. Tama kailangan ko lang ng makakausap, salamat at may nakausap ako. Nakakatuwa talaga kayo Dada, France, and Maya, hindi ko inaakalang nagpupuyat pala kayo kagaya ko, or nagkataon lang ngayon. Anyway salamat pa din, at mukhang ibang iba na ako kay sa kahapon or kanina. Cupid doesn't lie, but you wont know unless you give it a try.

Hay nako nakakapagod, muntik na ako nakatulog sa jeep. Wala masyadong activities ngayon, sayang hindi ako nakasama sa Recto at mukhang solo ang team A ngayon *sob*. Anyway nagulat lang ako kanina hahaha. May nag print ng blog ko, ibang klase ka talaga Ek, close na close na talaga tayo. :D Mukhang marami ng nakakaalam, pati si Dada and mama Franz haha ang saya saya naman. Mukhang "siya" na lang ang walang alam. Anyway totoo naman lahat ang nakasulat dito. Eh bakit nga ba wala pa akong ginagawang hakbang, at tila lalo pa akong nahihiya at naiilang sa kanya. Ganyan talaga siguro pag in love ka, ah ewan basta ang alam ko masaya ako ngayon.
Ayan may tagboard na uli ako. Sana maging alive uli ang blog ko kagaya nung dati.
It's so unbelievable, and I don't wanna let it go. Something so beautiful, flowing down like a waterfall.

E.G.G. tournament report.

March 5 2006. Me and my team had a quest to finish. We came there prepared, ready for battle. All we have is our pride, as one of the most competitive team in Metro Manila. The stage is set for the biggest tournament to date. It is really nice to see a lot of people who share the same interest as yours. 32 teams composed of 5 people, thats almost a hundread players. I saw a lot of familiar faces, we know it's gonna be hard because competition is much more harder this time around. I gotta give credit to J.B. for organizing this big tournament, we expect more of this magnitude as Dota continuous to plagued the gaming scene. Game 1 PnF vs Friomixx. This team had an interesting name. Anyway we don't know them that much. We won the coin toss and we chose Sentinel. It's time to show our "secret" line up! People were amaze when they saw our heroes. Everyone did their best. The game lasted for an hour thanks to "Pugna". Game 2 is a classic match betweem PnF and the team to beat in this event, 129Bota. 129Bota is the best team here in Manila, they conquer almost every shops and branded as "undefeatable". And they prove to be undefeatable, because they defeat us for the 3rd time. Yes our quest ends here. But it was a wonderful experience. To us it was not a waste because we learned a lot of strategy more than any team in that event. Just like the saying goes, Fall seven times..Stand up eight!

It's a very quiet Monday for me. Well I think because everyone is studying for our quiz. And I can't get you out of dreams...Co'z your smile is tatooed in my mind

Hmm what's new as of today? We have an upcoming tournament this Sunday at Glorietta, named as the biggest tournament to date, me and my team will not falter and will try our best to conquer every match that we will make. We need to practice guys, lets do our best. By the way in 5 weeks the Naruto series will be back on track, meaning that the series will start to get serious as they show Naruto 3 years after the exodus of sasuke. Anyway Im too adicted on watching Gundam Seed Destiny right now, superb anime. Im waiting for my 30gb Ipod Video! Cant wait to get my hands on it. The closer we are, the farther we are apart.

It's quite strange.I keep dreaming of "you" for the past few days. We are both happy, we are a couple. You're so beautiful, your smile and the way you look at me, it just takes my breath away. But still it is just a dream, but it feels so real. The truth is I like you very very much. But Im denying it while I'm awake. Maybe that is why it's taking forms in my dreams. But I can't deny it anymore, Im falling for you. But I will wait, ill have to make sure this feeling of mine. Aside I dont want to disturb her life as of now. I love this feeling, this is to good to be true. Let me sleep, for when I sleep I dream of you....

It's been a while. Last week there was an anime cosplay/otaku at UST sponsored by HERO!!! Wow, me and my boys are really happy to see our favorite anime characters come to life. People imitate characters from Naruto, Bleach, One Piece, Tekken, Yuyu Hakusho, and Final Fantasy. My personal favorites were Orichimaru(naruto) and Julia(tekken).
To Winnie: A classmate of mine. Chinese na chinese to mukha talgang anime. Kung sumali ka baka nanalo ka hahaha kaso sino gagayahin mo. Siguro bagay mo si Rukia ng Bleach kasi kasing height mo lang yun.

We had a company visit today! We went to LAYA MANANGHAYA a while ago. Wow I was so inspired. We went to Makati and we are all wearing corporate attires. Thanks to mareng Cherry for lending me a beautiful Ralph Lauren white long sleeves, I really appreciate it. Well everyone were beautiful(Winnie, Michelle, Erika, Franz, Chelie, Belle, Maan) but there is this one person that really caught my eye. She is none other than Grace, our president. She was so pretty on his attire, she looks so fresh yet sophisticated. I really loves the way she carry herself, and of course her sweet smile. Her smile is what makes her so damn beautiful. haha what am I saying. Anyway only few people are reading my blog. ouch my stomach is aching.

Hey mother, hope you're reading this. Im sorry that I did not log in last Sunday. I was so tired that day and I went to sleep early. We had our Run For Humanity and we run of course to accumulate funds. Take care always ok. If there is one thing I regret this day, that is I did not took a shot of Grace, I just hope someone does so I can save it to my computer.

Oh I almost forgot, we went to Lovapalooza last Saturday after our competition. Well all of us are boys, and single. Special thanks to Ruin, Paeng and Grimm for a very romantic gimmick hahaha. The fireworks were spectacular and it was worth going there eventhough we dont have a partner. Not everyone were kissing though but still you can feel that love was in the air.

Hmm I did something special today hehe I gave a rose to a special person. Its my way of showing my appreciation. Oh and its valentines, yah love is in the air. Everyone is happy, love can make the world go round! Thanks to Winnie and Jeff for a nice conversation, I really learn a lot. Third one, but I dont need a lot of wishes coz I'd be ok if I get one...

OH my valentine's day when is it? Today!? are you sure? I see. Valentines day is the most romantic day of the year, but for some(including me) this day will just remind us of how love failed us. But there's no need to get bitter, love itself is universal. I love my family, my friends, myself, who needs a girlfriend huh. Anyway my classmates are teasing me to this girl. I know her since 3rd year, we had some casual conversations too. I didnt notice her until she a had a hair makeover for her graduation pic I think, and I find her so damn pretty. Up to now of course Im liking her everyday. No girlfriend, no valentines for me, anyway ill just celebrate with others. Oh I remember happy anniversary to Ek and her fafa. Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all up...

I just bought myself a "KON" stuff toy. He's the stuff animal from Bleach. Everyone loves him even though they dont know him. Anyway he is so damn cute hehe. I want to congrats my DOTA team for a job well done. High performance hehe. It's about time, we can earn money every week. Oh and by the way we had a medical mission last Sunday. I got free chickenjoy and I've done....nothing, thanks. First one, I'll make a heart changing love....

Busy busy busy week!! I was busy the past few weeks. First of all is I need to process my NSTP. Luckily for me I have some company last Sunday. We went to tandang sora ( which is a place I don't know) and perform some "civil welfare" acts. I even saw my friend Eric there, I was surprised of course, and I even gain some few friends!! Second is that my classmates and I are preparing for our second general asssembly. Our theme is about movies, and we majorily chose Alladin. All of us have roles and they choose me to became the.....GENIE : D hahaha

Waaaa G.A. is over! And we won second place!! We should have been first! Anyway congratulations to all my classmates for their sweet effort. Everyone is nice to me these days. I got the feeling of being a monster, everyone is scared of me because they painted me blue! Yes, I got body painted and it was cool nevertheless. Anyway im the laughing GENIE mwahahaha. Thanks for the KFC treat! We won 1500 pesos wow. For me we are the true champions. Its the bonding that counts. Congratulations again to my wonderful class of 4a3. Special thanks to Roch, Joie,JM, Jeff, Winnie and Enna for helping me rinse my paint. You aint never had a friend like me.

Oh my malapit na pala valentines hehe. Sorry wala na akong partner pero tingin ko magsasaya pa rin ako. Wala naman kasing dahilan para malungkot. Everything happen because they need to happen, that's what I think. No regrets, no bitterness, no sentimentals. Someday maybe I will know. Anyway masama daw ang year of the firedog sa may mga lovelife kaya mag iingat kayo. Kung hei fat choi!! tama ba spelling hehe di ko kasi alam.

Sometimes in life Confidence is all you need. Confidence brings courage, courage brings success, success brings contentment. Even you are not as good looking as others still when you are confident enough, others will respect you, others will be inspired by you. As a man being confident is much more important, not just to impress ladies but to bring out the best in you! It's one way to improve yourself, be confident!! Of course there is this word over-confident. For me overconfidence is just overlooking of things. Its just like underestimating your opponent. Over confidence is not that bad if it is for yourself alone and not for others. Some people find me too confident especially during our exams. Maybe that's because if an optimistic person. Eventhough I know I fail, im still happy for what I have. Because failure is never final. So Im confident that Im gonna pass. Of course when you are confident, you release a positive aura to those people around and eventually you will become a symbol of hope. Lastly, confidence can attract more ladies I think because they make sense. Its just a matter of how you carry yourself. New hairstyle again. Aquaman.

At last prelims over. Sana makapasa kami lahat, especially sa mga nakakasama ko sa library araw araw. Nakakatuwa naman at nakapanood uli ako ng sine. Matagal tagal na rin ang huling sine ko. Syempre mas marami mas masaya. Madami pa akong gustong gawin. Congrats nga pala kay Pacman kahit hindi kami close. Ang galing K.O. sa 10th round. Do you believe in love and the promise that it brings?

Wow natapos na rin ang auditing namin. Salamat naman at answerable lahat ng problems, hay thank you lord. Sana makapasa kami lahat lalo na tong mga kasama ko sa library araw araw. Anyway bago ang hairstyle ko ngayon wala lang. Naka headband lang na itim. Para maiba naman, bagay ko naman daw eh hehe mukha daw daoming su. I more set to go at makakapag relax na kami.. Failure is never final, Success is never ending.

My Saturday schedule can be so tiring, from 11 am to 6 pm. Anyway its prelim next week. Need to study really really hard. I will prioritize 2 major subjects, manegerial accnt and auditing. Auditing is so hard! Need to focus all my chakra here. Anyway I wish all my classmates a happy reviewing and goodluck. Today I receive a gift from a special person. No its more like a request from me. A cd of Ishlavooh lolz. Ishlavooh is an underground band as of now. But they're good, hope they can make it to the big scene, sayang naman ang talent nila unless ayaw nila sumikat. Its no wonder love can make this go round....

Wow I think Im back to my old self again. Naalala ko nung gradeschool and highschool they used to call me ray "tawa".Mahilig kasi ako tumawa eh pero wala akong sayad ha. Some people appreciate the way I laugh, I dont know why. Maybe beacause it has a soothing tone, cute daw ako tumawa hahaha whatever that means. Anyway masaya ako kasi marami na uli akong napapasayang tao, kagaya ng dati. People will laugh just by hearing my laugh. Di kasi ako masyado madaldal the past 2 years eh. Pero naalala ko joker nga pala ako nun. Salamat nga pala kay J.M. for treating us yesterday, it was his birthday. I had a nice day, it was hilarious. Laughter is the best medicine, tama ba!?

Happy B-day yo my only MAMA!! Happy 52nd Birthday! I miss you so so much! I love you more than any woman in the world! You are the best mother in the world. Thanks for being a mother, a provider and a friend. Hope to see and touch you soon. Until then take care of yourself. Mwah!!